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Friday, May 14th, 2004
8:21 am	my ass hurts. Current Mood: annoyed Current Music: Staind-just go (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, May 13th, 2004
2:48 pm	TODAY IN THE WONDERFUL WORLD OF BETH... So Michelle calls the house while Nicole and I were getting ready to leave, and asks for Derek. At first she wouldnt tell me it was her, LIKE I AM THAT STUPID AND COULDNT FIGURE IT OUT...Then she tells me she has to talk to Derek, its important and blah fucking blah. I told her he was not home. She prolly thought I was lying, but at the time, he really wasnt here. She was kinda cryin, and kinda tryin to make it dramatic, but I really didnt give 2 shyts...So then Derek comes in and I tell him she called, and what do u know, she called back. So Nicole answered it, and gave the phone to Derek. He pretty much told the bitch to fuck off, Apparently she wanted to ask him for advice or soemthing, but wouldnt tell Derek on the phone what she wanted advice about. He told her to deal with her own shyt, he didnt want to see her. She came to the house anyway! And knocked on the door for about 10 minutes. Just standin there, knocking. I mean, if someone tells you not to come over, and then does not answer the door after the first 2 minutes, you would think, "hey maybe they dont wanna fucking talk to me!" But no, she knocked for like 10 min. Then went down to her car, and called again. We didnt answer. Derek wants nothin to do with her, I dont know why she keeps trying. So then I talked to Derek while he was in the shower...and I asked him if he was ok and so on...He said he was fine, and then he reassured me that WE are OK. Which is good, cause in situations like that, I need to be reassured. I am only female, my mind runs, unfortuntly. He told me he wants nothin to do with her, and she needs to deal with her own issues herself, cause she brought it all on herself. Like I said, I dont care, as long as I dont get fucked. I have not gotten fucked, so we are good. He says we are good, and I believe it. But I still worry sometimes. I am really happy, and its the happiest I have been in a long time, and I am actually startin to be pretty stable with everything. I like that feeling. The feeling that everythin will be better soon, and everythin will work out... WEll...so now that is over with...I am online chilling and someone randomly ims me. Its a screen name i have seen before, but was not sure who it was...turns out its Mike's new girlfriend, Sara. She just randomly imd me, which his fine. I mean, she was completely civil, and she she even jogged my memory, turns out I have hung out with her before, back in the day with some friends when I was with Mike...lol...she told me she wants to hang out when I move up there...which is fine, as long as no drama comes out of it. Today at work, I found a lizard, actually, he just kinda showed up in the store...lol...he was soo cute, and i wanted to catch him. I tried my god damn hardest too to catch him but Nicole fucked it all up. She freaked out when we tried to get him and it ran away, behind a bunch of shyt. So my day has been fun. yay. Current Mood: aggravated Current Music: 40 below summer-we the people (Comment on this)
Wednesday, May 5th, 2004
2:50 pm	Happy Cinco De Mayo!! yay, drunkeness with Nicole later... Aww poor Derek has school. No drunkeness for him. eh, we ended up not going to that wedding on Sunday. Ryan ended up getting stranded in Delaware, and the plan was to go with him. Plus he was the only one who knew how to get there...so instead we chilled over Alex's house and got drunk. Ended up chillin with about 30 other people too, from the party the night before. HaHa, that party kicked ass. I was wasted. Chilled with many of my old friends from Vista and Cape and met many new people. I made Eimile go to the party to, she met many new people and I believe she had fun. She was pretty tipsy herself. I was so wasted by the end of the night I was drinking beer. EWWW. I hate that shyt. Well that is all for now, I have a few things to do before I go out with Nicole... Current Mood: refreshed Current Music: ayla-angelfalls (Comment on this)
Saturday, May 1st, 2004
11:17 am	I have to go to a wedding tomorrow for Derek's and Ryan's cousin Michelle. Should be interesting. I dont know any of the people who are going. The wedding is on the Eastern Shore. I dont know if we are heading up there tonight or not. It would be easier just to stay the night up there, I dont feel like getting up ass early tomorrow morning to get ready and then riding up there...but I guess I gotta just go with it. It should be fun though. Gonna meet people, get drunk, and dance. Always good times! (Comment on this)
Thursday, April 29th, 2004
4:53 am	I AM UP, AND OUT OF BED. Wow. I have been awake since like 6:30 and have not been able to fall back asleep. So I just deceided to crawl out of bed when Derek woke up and left for work. I am not tired at all though. My sleeping habits have improved alot since I moved in here. I do not have nightmares as often as I was, and if I have one, its not that bad. The only thing that really keeps me up at night anymore is Derek fuckin stealing blankets. BLANKET WHORE! ERRRR. I think I will start wakin up this early everyday though. Wakin up early and taking a shower makes me feel all good and relaxed. Plus gettin to much sleep is bad, and if I keep sleepin in now, once I get a job, it will kill me, cause I wont wanna get up in the morning. I took out my belly button piercings today. At least the 2 on the sides. They are not healin right and I am sick of dealin with them. Actually the one was already healed, the other one is infected and is staying that way. But I wont take one out and leave the other. I cant be lopsided. te he. That would look funny. So I have deceided that once the piercing in the middle COMPLETELY heals I will get the other two pierced again or I will get some other type of piercing in my belly. I cant have just one! But right now, this one needs to heal before I go haywire on my belly button. I think my belly button looks funny now cause I dont have the other two in there. :( OH well. I am gonna get my tongue done. OH YA. Once I have the money its getting done. I actually want 2 in my tongue...but I will have to get them done one at a time, to make sure they both heal. Actually for a tongue I may be able to get them done at the same time, I will have to talk to a piercer about that. Blah blah blah...I am gettin to busy to write in here... Current Mood: busy Current Music: Aphex Twin-come to daddy (Comment on this)
Wednesday, April 28th, 2004
5:01 pm	Oh my...i did that thing, where u move your body in ways it normally doesnt go...and I did this for a while today...while thinking that maybe I will do this everyday...it makes your body feel all good afterwards...plus I need to get into shape anyway...my knee has been killing me and I think its cause I didnt keep up with my exercises after therapy ended... LAUNDRY WILL BE THE DEATH OF ME. that is all there is to it. Current Mood: thoughtful Current Music: Tool-hooker with a penis (3 Comments |Comment on this)
12:33 pm	oh look, two updates in one week...this could be a new record...te he. So we went to see Squarepusher last night at the Black Cat, and everything was well until I found out at last minute that MICHELLE was going. That bitch doesnt even like Squarepusher. She bought a ticket, knowing Derek and I were going, just to piss us off. OH and it worked. I almost didnt go. Derek didnt wanna go either but being he spent $30 on tickets and all of our friends were goin with us, we went. Things were well, until Squarepusher came on, and we went to find all of our friends. They were all in the back of the club dancing and such. And Michelle was there, which sucked, cause we wanted to stay back there and chill with our friends, but we didnt being she was there, and she likes to start trouble. After that Derek and I were both annoyed but did our best not to be pissed. Anywho, Squarepusher was tight. I still had fun, even though she was there, and Derek was upset that we couldnt chill with our friends. I talked to Derek on the ride home, and asked him if him and I were still good...He says all is well and he wants to be with me, not her. He was just annoyed that she is still trying to make his life hell. And she is. Why spend the money, to get into a show, when u dont even like the person playing? She went, to get to him. The only reason he was upset is cause she was with ALL of his friends so he ended up not chillin with them at all which was the original plan. I dont care. As long as him and I are good. That is all I need, is his word, and I have it. The other thing that pissed me off last night is the fact that I want to get to know Erin, who is Little Aarons girlfriend. AND everytime I try to chill with her, and try to get to know her better, something goes wrong. This time it being Michelle showed up. Erin seems like a cool chick, and being that she is one of Derek's best friends girlfriend's I would like to get to know her. It just doesnt seem like its gonna happen. lol. Derek is gonna hit up Aaron this weekend so we will see what happens. Then there is gonna be a small party at Studio May 29th, so if she goes to that, maybe I will get to chill with her then. That party better be small like they are sayin, cause I dont want the cops to show up like last time. That was crap. But Aaron said its just gonna be like 25 people or so chilling for his cd release party. I cant wait to here Aaron spin, that will be fun. BUT I will not stay at that party long if more then 30 or so people show up. I am not getting arrested. lol. no no no. There were over 100 people there last time, and that was just not good. Derek is talking about possibly movin to philly once i have my license, and we have a little bit of money saved up. I think it would be awesome. Our friend Josh lives up there now, so we can chill with him on weekends and job hunt and such before we move up there. Its in the air, but I like the idea. Plus Lindsay got accepted to an art school in Philly so she will need room mates. We have talked to her about it, and have deceided to see what will happen. She is going up there within the year. I wouldnt mind going up there. It would be a fun experience. WOW...i just got off the phone, with this guy named Eddie. Some old friend of Dereks apparently. He talked my fuckin ear off. He seems sweet though, so I dont really mind. It was like his life story, in a nut shell. He told me to have Derek call him, and believe me, I wont forget. lol. Egg Rolls in my tummy...yay Current Mood: hungry Current Music: Portishead-Roads (Comment on this)
Wednesday, April 21st, 2004
5:39 pm	Well I guess its time to start updating again. I have not really been online at all lately, and god knows how long its been since I wrote a journal entry. Life is slowly beginning to get better. Things are looking up, they are taking there time, but I guess every good thing comes in time. I am living with Derek. Living here is going well. Him and I get along great and his mother loves me to death. She likes having me around during the day, cause while Derek is at work, I clean...lol...forever fuckin cleaning!...oh well. Its like my rent. She doesnt make me pay anything right now at all. So I dont mind cleaning. She said once I start working again she will make me give her like $20 a week for groceries. You cant beat $20 a week. I am not working, but applied to several places. Rite Aid and Blockbuster both called me for interviews. I am gonna figure out which job has the best benefits and go with that one. I need a job that will provide me with medical insurance soon. I have the interviews at the end of this week. YAY! I can not stand not working. I am so bored during the fucking day. Derek and I seem to work very well together. We have alot of the same interests, and like the same people, so we really connect with everything we do. We have not said the "L" word yet, and I really dont mind. I am content where we are, and taking things slow is really working out. On the 24th of April we will have been together for 2 months...YAY. Not long at all, but you gotta start somewhere. For a while I really was having issues with the fact that Michelle is still around. But I am getting over it. Derek has had many opportunities to leave me for her, and hasnt. Before I went job hunting, I told him he better be serious about us, cause I dont wanna get a job, then break up with him. Then once I got the interviews I asked him again if he still wants me to live with him and be with me, and once again he reassured me, so I believe all is well. He does alot to make sure he shows that he cares. He is almost kinda clingy at times, but its not annoying clingy, its cute clingy, if that makes any sense...lol...All he has to do is smile at me, and my heart gets all fuzzy...I have not felt that in a while. It feels good to feel wanted and cared for like that. I dont wanna say "loved" cause love has not been thrown directly into the mix yet. Well enough of that, I TALKED TO HEATHER TODAY...Apparently since about a week ago things have changed. Her and Ian are back together. At first, I was kinda pissed. All I could think about is how can they be that stupid? And why shouldnt I think that way? They have tried twice, and it hasnt worked twice...BUT...then I sat and I thought about it. I believe the biggest reason it didnt work out before is because Heather was confused and didnt have things settled or out of her system. She had Ian, Tony, and Josh all at her calling. She had liked Josh for a while, and Tony had become a little crush. And unfortuntly for Ian, he was not here, and they were. So it confused her because he was not here, and she could see the other 2 whenever. Now that Heather has reliazed that Tony is not a good match for her, and that Josh is just an ass, she can look past all her confusion and see that Ian really does care for her, and really wishes things to work out. AND YOU KNOW WHAT...I am happy for them. Ian and Heather have been my 2 best friends for many years, and if that is what makes them happy I am happy. Heather needs something stable in her life. Heather needs someone who will care for her, and can take care of her, and Ian is just the person to do that. I really hope you 2 can make it work out. I just cant wait for the wedding! Weddings are soo much fun, and I even get to be in this one! I am gonna cry soooo much when Heather and Ian get married. AWWWWW...heather we need to get together and chill, I miss you. I have been chilling with Eimile alot. She is becoming my best friend. We have alot in common, and its great. We like to go on missions together, and our latest one is settin her up with Jon. I hope they get together. It would be perfect, cause Em and I are soo close, and Derek and Jon are soo close. I wish to become closer to Jon to. He seems really chill, and trustworthy. He seems like someone I could really talk to, which is what I need. People I can trust. I have had enough of all the bullshyt, you know? I am ready to start my life, and get it going somewhere, and having people I can confide in, always helps, which is why I love my Eimile so much. Well I guess this is all for now, but I will be updating more. Derek has to finish making me an account on the computer and then I will be online all the time. Current Mood: contemplative Current Music: dj micro-tech mix 2000 (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, March 10th, 2004
3:24 pm	I told my father my plan about dropping out of school for the time being. He was not pleased, but he didnt yell. He just told me to do what I feel I have to do. I need to just work alot, get a car, and get away from my house. That is my ultimate plan right now. My dad and I have been pretty ok lately. But my stepmom insists on being a cunt. She is all about hating Derek, which is fine, she will have to get over it, or at least deal with it. My dad and I got into a huge fight the other day, and I made some pretty valid points, and ever since then, he has been cool with me. But my mother hasnt even still. The other day, Derek stopped by to pick me up, and my dad even let him in the house, which is a huge improvment. My mother bitched out my dad for letting Derek in though. My dad just told her to shutup basically. So what, Derek made some mistakes back in the day? But havent we all? I know I have. My parents have forgiven me, I mean, I know I am there daughter and all, but still. My dad has had some friends make some horrible mistakes. But he forgave them, and still hangs with them. Why does it make it different that its my friend? My stepmom is all about "well derek was doing hardcore drugs and blah blah..." well um, correct me if I am wrong, but didnt she used to do coke and crack? Correct me if I am wrong, but didnt their friends Timmy and Rob do coke, herion, and other drugs IN OUR HOUSE while they were housesitting? And she can forgive them? What the fuck? Stop being a hypocrit mother. So what, Derek was fucked, but he isnt anymore. I wouldnt be with him if that was the case. I wouldnt hang around him, or any of the people I am chilling with. GET OVER YOURSELF MOTHER. In other news, George is apparently back. He got out of jail, and moved to Missiouri for a bit there, and now is back. Glen told Derek and I that he stopped by yesterday. We werent there. We have yet to see George. Him being back should be interesting. I am willing to chill with him, as long as he doesnt fall back into all the shyt he was in. The second that boy does something really dumb, I am outta there. Fuck all that. I look forward to seeing him though. I do miss him. We will see, hopefully he has changed his ways too. I have alot to think about, and alot to get done. I just hope it all turns out. We will see I suppose. Current Mood: contemplative Current Music: from autumn to ashes-eulogy for an angel (Comment on this)
Tuesday, March 9th, 2004
11:37 am	so ya, i am pretty sure I am gonna drop out this semester. I am gonna go talk to the dean tomorrow, and see if I can get my bill revoked. Just drop it all now, and work so I can get a car, which means I can move out easier. I just really need to work on the car issue. I will just go back to school next semester. Plus I wanna enroll in the piercing school. I wanna become a professional piercer. Its def something I am into. I will still persue my massage to. Sounds like a plan, I just wanna get a car first. that is all for now. i am over dereks and bored out of my mind. need to find somethin to do. Current Mood: bored Current Music: spacegirl-temptation (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, March 8th, 2004
12:50 pm	So my weekend fucking rocked my socks...except for the fighting wtih the parents...but I will deal with that one later. Friday night, we went to Nations. Most of our group bailed out on us, but it was still good times. Derek, Little Aaron, and I were the only ones who ended up going. We got mad stoned before hand, which was cool. Dancing while high is awesome. I was offered other drugs, but I am not all for that. I dont wish to do E. But I danced/raved for 5 hrs straight. My knee is killing me! But it was so worth it! My knee almost went out on me, and I ended up on my ass for a bit, but I am ok. Derek is a really good dancer. But he didnt dance as long as I did. He stopped for a long while, and so did Aaron now that I think about it. But Aaron was all about getting free shyt, and finding out where the parties are for this weekend. I CANT WAIT FOR THIS COMING WEEKEND, but ya I didnt get home from Nation until like 4:30. Then I had to be at work by 7:00. I only got 1 hr of sleep. I was half dead at work, but I drank mad Red Bulls to stay up...lol...they are yummy. Then I chilled with my girly Stephanie for a while, we went shopping, and she bought me new jeans, cause she won $200 playing lotto and she didnt wanna tell her husband about it...lol...She dropped me off, I did the birthday thing we the family. We went out to China Buffet for dinner. I love that place. But after my little brother opened presents and we ate cake, I met up with Derek. We ended up over Daniels and Stevens house. Which was fucking awesome. I was so out of it when i first got there though, cause i didnt sleep at all. Sleep dep is like, the best drug...lol...puts you completely out there. Sara was intent on waking me up though. Sara and Alaina got me mad stoned in Sara's room. Then the guys in the living room got more weed, and got us even higher. On top of that, I was all kinds of drunk. I took like 9 shots of whatever liquor they had. It was yummy, and strong, and did the trick. Sara gave me a muscle relaxer and a perk too. So I felt really good all night. Sara and Alaina were both fucked to, but the guys were only smoking. Daniel was drinking a bit too. But Derek didnt drink any, cause he was driving. Hanging out with them is really good times. They are all good people. Fucking Daniel threw a fake spider at me. Of course, I thought it was real. I have a horrible phobia to those damn things. So everyone got a huge kick out of me screaming and throwing a fight, then i reliazed it was plastic. Its ok. I talked to Alaina for hours that night. Turns out she knows alot of the people I hang out with. She is like, gabby's old best friend. Which is kinda funny, cause gabby used to bitch about her all the time, and made her sound like a horrible bitch, but I love the girl. Alaina told me, she wants to be friends with gabby again, and I hope that will work out, cause it would be good times to hang out with the both of them. Plus I heard Alaina's side of the story, and I dont think she really did anything wrong. Its a long story though. It basically comes down to, this girl Robyn fucked gabbys, babies father, and when Alaina found out and told Gabby, Darell(babies daddy), said he fucked alaina to, that way he didnt go down alone. Gabby bought it. I dont think its true though. Who knows. Either this chick is innocent, and lost a friend over nothing, or she is really good at lieing. But either way, I like her. I have no reason not to. so ya...it was good. Ended up back at Derek's around 2ish, and we just crashed. It felt good to sleep. lol. This coming weekend there is a huge warehouse rave in bmore. I cant wait. I am def going. Its Saturday night. $5 to get in. Oh Ya. I am gonna party it up. I will be there all night though. I dont work the next morning. I am tryin to get a bunch of people to go. Tony uno says he may go. that would be cool. I believe little Aaron is going to. I dont know if Emily and Heather will be down, we will see what happens with all that. I work at 2:30 today. ew. Current Mood: relaxed Current Music: From Autumn to ashes-Autumns Monologue (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Thursday, March 4th, 2004
7:03 am	I am at school, all ass early in the morning. Its just now about 7:00. I had Derek just drop me here this morning cause I have to print something out. Unfortuntly the good comp labs upstairs are not open just yet. So I am down in Careers bored as fuck, on the shitty ass comps. I am pissed as shyt though, cause what I need to print out, is due today at 8:00. The fucking labs dont open until 8:00! So either I will not be in class on time, or my teacher will have to let me turn it in after class. DAMN MY PARENTS FOR NOT HAVING A WORKNIG PRINTER. I just cant win. well that is all for now, this would be alot longer, but I have a test to study for. Current Mood: aggravated (Comment on this)
Wednesday, March 3rd, 2004
8:46 pm	hm... 80% on my math test 76% on my health test. 84% on my pysch paper. all decent grades. not A's...but passing. passing is good. (2 Comments |Comment on this)
8:11 pm	my parents wanna kick me out. go figure. i am not doing as they please, and listening to their every command and they wanna boot me. FUCK THEM. 1. They say I am never home. Hello, I am 19 yrs old, in college, and I work around 30 hrs a week. Do I have time to be home? No not really. If I am not at school or work, I am attemping to have a life. Not to mention, being that I dont drive, I am usually with my friends who are driving...what am I gonna say..."oh no take me home, which is out of the way, because my parents are dicks?" no i dont think so. I am 19, i am gonna chill with my friends and have fun. I am at the age where I should be having fun. 2. The parental units say I dont do anything around the house which is complete bullshyt. I take the time, to be home at least one day a week during the day, so I can throughly clean the house, and my bedroom. I also do the dishes when I am home. My shyt is always picked up and not laying scattered around the house. Just cause I am not home everyday to be stuck up their asses and clean the house all the time, and do dishes every night like they would wish me too, does not mean that I dont clean. There are 5 people living here...other people can help out to. Its not my fault my 15 yr old sister is a lazy couch bitch. Make her do dishes once or twice a week. I dont wanna hear that she is to busy to do anything around the house, all she does is go to school. She is in 10th grade, oh ya, her life is hard. She never leaves the god damn house unless she is at school! She can take time from her beloved cartoon network to do some fucking dishes! The only thing she does around the house is cleaning the kitchen on Sundays. Thats it. Other then that, she may clean the bathroom once every other month or so. ERRRR. And as for my parents, I dont ever see or here about them doing anything around the house, except maybe the dishes. Their excuse is they work. OH POOR THINGS...you work. YA SO DO I, and i have school, but i still try to do things around the house. i dont like living in a fucking hell hole. You people bitch that the house is cluttered and dirty, well if mom wasnt such a pack rat, and would get off her ass and throw shyt away, maybe the house wouldnt be like that. If the boys would get rid of some of that shyt they dont play with, maybe we wouldnt have random toys everywhere. If dad got off his ass and stopped playing video games and drinking all the fucking time, maybe we would not have beer cans everywhere and cords on the floor where they can be tripped over!! IF YOU FUCKERS WOULD QUIT YOUR BITCHING AND JUST CLEAN UP AFTER YOURSELVES MAYBE WE WOULDNT HAVE THIS ISSUE! 3. My parents bitch that I am always out with friends, and that every once in a while my friends come over...well...um...being that I dont have my own room, where are my friends and I gonna chill? I cant play half of my music in the house cause of the 8 yr old, yet the parents can cuss and carry on all the time. I cant sit and watch movies in my room, cause my sister comes in and out of our room all the time. I have no privacy. My friends and I go to their houses and chill where we do have privacy. Also...my friends drive me to and from work and school most of the time. If they do it, I dont inconvience the parents, so y are they bitching? ERrr... 4. my parents smoke in the house. so fucking nasty. i hate it. and being that i dont smoke, and i am allergic to it, i dont wanna be around it. it makes the house smell. I dont want to sit around in the house while it stinks. and my friends dont smoke either so i doubt they wanna be around it. i mean, being that i am allergic u figure they wouldnt do it in the house. but no. they dont have the decency for it. i cough so much when i am home, and all my mom can say is "you are not taking care of yourself." um...no...that is not y i am hacking up a lung u stupid cunt. Then they have Rob come over, and it gets worse. Kill yourself outside of the house please. 5. My parents are also pissed about me hanging out with derek so much. they say he is no good cause he used to be a hoodlum back in the day..but hello, so was i. I was a shythead when i was younger, but i am doing much better now, and so is derek. Derek is now in college, has a job, a car, pays his bills...he is alot better off then he used to be, but my parents cant look past that. My parents never wanna give people a second chance. They are soo judgemental, yet my dad says he is liberal. BLAH. my parents can be assholes all they want. if i get kicked out, i will deal with it. i will have to. Current Mood: crappy Current Music: mindless self indulgence-tornado (Comment on this)
Tuesday, March 2nd, 2004
11:21 am	people are fucking stupid. take the time, to go vomit up your insides, i hope it tastes just as good as the satisfaction you got when u blew things out of proportion and ran your mouth. DOES IT TASTE GOOD? 1. I did not fuck Mackey. i dont fuck random dudes. and if you dont know that by now, u dont know me very well. hm can we say friendship? and even if i had fucked that boy, it still would of not been your business to run your mouth. if u had thought i was screwing him, u should of came to me first. should of talked to me. not opened your mouth. 2. what i write in my journal, is my business. i give people my permission to read it. if u read it, and have an issue with what i write, come to me and talk to me about it. And dont give people the link to my journal. if i wanted someone to read it, i would give them the link myself. 3. and as for me and derek...that is all up in the air right now just cause of the situation. ya i spend lots and lots of time with him, but its no big deal. and once again, is it your business?? no its not. its not your business unless i want it to be. 4. dave i care about you, but um...can we say 3 states away? we are not together. and as of now, i dont think i can trust u...i mean shyt..."i am gonna go to a party and blah blah..." just to piss me off...well it worked. me=PISSED. 5. Ian eat me. THAT IS ALL. Current Mood: aggravated Current Music: aphex twin-come to daddy (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, March 1st, 2004
9:16 am	So went to Alchemy on Thursday...It was great times. I originally was not gonna go, but then deceided it would be fun times. Oh and it was! Emily, Heather, and I got all hussied up and took really hott pics of each other. Once I get the means, I will put them on here for all to see. Derek met us up there too. Which was yummy times. He can dance really really well might I add. He knows how to use those glow sticks. I want him to teach me. We are goin to Cubik Nation on friday. I cant wait. Dancing until 5:00 in the morning...aaron is gonna go too, which is awesome, cause he is the best dancer i know. he moves his body in all directions, and its great to watch. but it sucks though, cause his girlfriend erin cant go with us. she has a heart condition so the bass effects her heart and causes her to pass out. she needs surgury. once she gets that, she will be able to go with us. we are just unsure on when she is getting the surgury. Ian- ya I am not even talking to mackey anymore, i got your post in my email, and was gonna reply but accidently deleted it...so ya dave doesnt know, and he isnt gonna know, cause its not a big deal, and never was a big deal. but i do need to tell dave about derek...ewww...bad times....that conversation will suck, but yes i know it needs to happen...yucky. well ya, i have been at dereks every night for the past week. its been fun times. dereks mommy loves me, she always has loved me, but its great. her and i talk all the time, she likes to ramble to me, but its not a big deal. derek fell asleep all early last night, and dereks mom talked to me for like 2 hrs before i went to bed. I was all in the bathroom getting ready to sleep, and bam, mom all in my shyt talking to me about random crap. fun times. TONY GAVE ME ORBIT! YES! EMILY IS A HOTT HUSSY! THAT IS ALL. Current Mood: ditzy Current Music: aphex twin-bucephalus bouncing ball (Comment on this)
Thursday, February 26th, 2004
11:30 am	I told everyone that I would be attending Alchemy with them this evening, but I think I may bail out on that. I am unsure at the moment. First off I have not been feeling well, not that being sick would stop me from going dancing, but at this point in time I cant afford to get any sicker then I already fucking am. Also there is someone going, whom will remain nameless, who I wish not to be around! I wish to disect him and feed his organs to human eating monkeys! AHHHHHHH! That insignificant pion needs to wither away and DIE! soo ya, i may not go...I really wanna go...we will see how the day goes. Derek works and I am unsure when he gets off work, and if he doesnt go, I am not going, just cause I am not riding in the same car as the person I mentioned above. Derek was gonna drive me, but if he works late, then has to get up early to work tomorrow, that would be bad times. I have a test in Health in about half and hour...that is gonna suck...I mean I am not gonna fail, I did study...but I prolly wont get an A...hm... that is all for now...ttfn. Current Mood: discontent Current Music: spacegirl-temptation (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Tuesday, February 24th, 2004
9:50 pm	I am stoned out of my fucking mind. It feels so very great to just feel this way again. Mind completely cleared for once. I have not been high since October. Nicole deceided that she needed to fix that, and she did... Derek should be here soon. I am staying the evening over his house i believe. He gets off work around 10ish. should be fun. Michelle feels dumb as shyt now. She went up to Nicole's work today, and found out who I am...lol...she had not a clue last night when she tried to attack me that I am Nicole's best friend and Derek's best bud from years back. Now she feels like an IDIOT! and i think its great. Apparently she is not out for blood now. we will see how that goes. Derek let her stay over his house last night...I have to bring that one up to him later on...Michelle told Nicole she had no where to go, so Derek let her stay there...She also told Nicole that Derek wouldnt let her touch him...te he...and apparently Derek told Michelle that I am his girlfriend now...lol...awesome...I mean, its not true...but its still amusing. I think he did it so she would back the fuck off...we will see if that works out...doubtful. well thats all for now...i will write more about recent happenings laterz on... Current Mood: groggy Current Music: From autumn to ashes-alive out of habit! (1 Comment |Comment on this)
2:47 pm	HAPPINESS!! 90% ON MY HEALTH QUIZ...GO ME...GO ME...GO ME... now lets just see how the test on Thursday goes... Current Mood: excited Current Music: a perfect circle-pet (Comment on this)
2:33 pm	its a blah day I only went to one class today. I didnt feel like going to my 8:00 pysch class after my evening last night...and english just didnt sound appealing either. HA I should be in english right now...oh well...Health was good though, cause we have a test on Thursday and the teacher did a big review for the period. Review=good stuff. So ya...Michelle wants to kill me...its ok though, I am ready to throw down with that bitch, let her bring it. OH LET HER. I need someone to vent all my anger and frustration out on, and she would be the perfect canidate. So Derek broke up with her about a month ago, because she cheated on him with his best friend. Well ever since they broke up, him and I have been hanging out. I have known the boy for 10 years, and have been pretty good friends with him. Last night, we had a run in with her and she was pissed to learn that Derek was chilling with me. We are just friends, not like I am fucking him or anything! But she was pissed. Long story short, she started asking Derek if I am the reason he left her. One thing led to another and she brought me into it. Derek wouldnt let me out of his car. She tried to get through him to me, kept calling me a bitch, a cunt, you name it, it came out of her mouth. Derek wouldnt let me fight her. She is out for blood though, cause she thinks its my fault they are not together. YOU FUCKING OPENED YOUR LEGS FOR HIS BEST FRIEND! HOW IS THAT MY FAULT? STUPID HOE. So she is all kinds of wanting to fight me. I will throw down with her, but I doubt Derek will let it happen. We will see how things work out. I just know I have a crazy pyscho bitch on my ass. So I am gonna chill with Derek and Nicole today. I have not seen my girl in soo long. I cant wait. I am unsure to what we are gonna do...but it will be good times no matter what. well that is all for now...my hand hurts for some unapparent reason...i didnt even type that much. Current Mood: blah Current Music: tool-stinkfist (Comment on this)